I have to take a philosophy test before Monday, which is annoying. I want to enjoy my weekend, damnit!
Anyway, we're hanging out right now, going to eat breakfast soon, and then we might go play some warcraft...and we're going camping this weekend! I hope I don't freeze...
Last night we got hungry, so me, Chipmunk, Skull and Eric went to Denny's. Because it was cheap, and now I'm broke...Oh well, eating is good. Apparently there's an ATM in the library, so I can get more money that way. Whatever. I'll figure something out. Then we came back and played D&D (Dungeons and Dragons) to D&B (Drum and Bass)...heehee! Ok, we didn't actually play, but we started making characters before we got too tired to concentrate and started playing magic instead.
I'm still worried about Chris...I don't want him to hate me...
~Miss Lemon~
*Time to get my Warcraft on*
Saturday, September 29, 2001

I'm still confused/depressed/crazy!
But I'm also a faerie today!
Chipmunk and I got to play Stephen's drums and now we're going to learn how to play D&D!
See ya's!
~Miss Lemon~
Friday, September 28, 2001

I met really cool people!
We had fun!
Then a bunch of shit happened!
And I made a mistake!
And I feel awful!
I like my happy pills!
~Miss Lemon~
It's not crack, it's Marshmallow Mateys.
Thursday, September 27, 2001

I figured out what bothers me so much about this school/town...
Everyone's too fscking normal.
That's no fun.
~Miss Lemon~
I miss my psycho friends!!!!!
Monday, September 17, 2001

I'm determined to stick this out, but right now I really, really want to go home. Damn. This is going to be MUCH harder than I thought...and I wasn't expectin' no picnic, neither.
~Miss Lemon~

Well, here I am in Bend...
It seems ok so far, although I haven't actually started class yet. I think the problem with Bend is going to be that (so far, anyway) all the people seem to be athletic yuppies. Maybe that's not true. I haven't really had time to form an opinion yet, but I hope classes will be interesting...yeesh. We start tomorrow. They only give us one day to move in...I'm not sure about my rommate either...I hope she's ok. She seems...I don't know. I'll figure it out and then write more later.
This is a very rambling entry, isn't it?
~Miss Lemon~
Sunday, September 16, 2001

"Life just keeps getting harder
And it just keeps getting harder to hide
The darker it is around me
The easier it is to see inside
Outside the glass
The whole world is magnified
And it's half an inch
From here to the other side"
--Ani Difranco, (Glass House)

I don't know what to think...I know I haven't written in a long time, but this whole attack thingy is forcing me to look for an outlet, even if I don't know what to say. This whole thing is still sort of surreal to me, mostly, I think, because I'm far away. I feel removed, and wish I didn't. But I am afraid...nameless worries flit through my head. I try to pin them down on paper, because that's what I do, but it doesn't seem to work. I've started half a dozen poems, and they just sort of trickle off, which is very frustrating to me.
I think that's all for right now...I need to get this clear for myself before I post any more.
~Miss Lemon~
*Horribly, horribly sad...*
"do you ever have that dream
when you open your mouth
and you try to scream
but you can't make a sound
that's everyday starting now
that's everyday starting now"
--More Ani Difranco (Wish I May)
Thursday, September 13, 2001



Cam pops up.

Feeling: Cranky.
Eating: Scone thing.
Reading: "God-Emperor of Dune" by Frank Herbert
Listening to: My Digital Illustration teacher (Mr. Thompson)
Playing: Nothing
Arch-nemesis: Mornings
Currently Preferring: Computers over PEOPLE.
craving: Salad & Coffee

Fight Club
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