Crying over spilt finals
I'm having an awful day.
I just took my Introduction to Motion Pictures final, and you know what?
I drew a blank on EVERY SINGLE FUCKING ANSWER.
I labored over every question that damn thing for an hour before I had to go...I was the last one out of the class, and on top of it all, I turned bright red and blinked back tears in front of my film teacher. He's a really nice guy though...he understood, I think.
Luckily I managed to make it back to the dorms before I started bawling too bad.
And then you know what?
Everyone just told me it would be ok, like they expected that to help. It's not that I think it WON'T be ok...I know this isn't going to ruin my life, and I know I'm not going to agonize over this forever, but for right now I just...I just liked that class a lot and I wanted to do really good in it. I tried so hard, and I blew it.
I'm just really, really disappointed with myself I guess.
And I want to find Chipmunk and talk to her, because I think she'll understand better than everybody else, but she's not here...maybe I'll go to my Spot in Grandview.
And I still have to finish my paper...and study for writing...
Can't I do anything right?
I'm going to go cry some more now, and then I'll probably feel better.
You know what?
I swore this wouldn't happen again.
I swore to a bunch of people.
I guess I'm a failure.
I got the archives to work!
Oh yeah! Who rocks? I rock.
I wore my faerie wings so I could be a snow faerie today! And it's snowing!
Anyway, I have to find someone who can rent videos, because I need to rent
"The Usual Suspects" for my film class so I can write my paper on it...That's
kind of important.
We're planning on playing D&D tonight, so that means we'll be commandeering
the TV room again...we have to get down there before anyone else though,
otherwise they won't let us use it.
People get cranky when we steal the TV room, but it has the best couches.
No, I don't really have anything "worthwhile," or "productive," or even "interesting."
to say. Fine, I'll go. Fine, be that way. Fine!
You think you can do better, punk?
I just finished my Philosophy final, so I don't have any more finals until Thursday! Woo!
Well, except I have a paper due then, so I'll need to work on that, and study terminology.
And on Friday I have a writing final, and I need to write out my essay beforehand so I
know what I'm going to say...
I think I did OK on my Philosophy final...I guess I won't know for awhile...
I'll study/write/whatnot some more tonight, then study more tomorrow,
and then work on Christmas presents! I'm nearly done, but...not quite.
But now I think I'm going to go take a nap.
Or play Daggerfall :)
I made a Dark Elf, and she kicks arse!
Sick (of finals?)
Drank a buncha NyQuil last night, and today I'm feeling nauseus (no, I don't care
how it's spelled). Not sure if that's from being sick, or nerves about upcoming
Erk. Nausea SUCKS.
I took my photography final already, and I think I actually kick arse on it! Or at least
Well, time to go study some more...
I DON'T FEEEEEEL GOOOOD!