No Very Little Sleep!    

Good times yesterday...hung out with a lot of people o_O (Social? US? Crazy!)

Let's see...Roman and his sister dropped by, then Cliff and Nick, but Cliff had to leave...watched "Equilibrium" which was pretty good...the point-blank shootout scene was AWSOME. Then we walked over to Safeway and got some food, and then hung out at the park lighting off smoke bombs and crackling balls. Good times, good times. Tried to get ahold of Cliff and Lisa, but just ended up heading down and watching the fireworks at City Hall....then we went over to Cliff and Lisa's and watched part of the South Park movie..I had a few beers and got really hungry, so we ended up going home for food though. All in all, a very cool day.

In other much, really. Plans for a drunken anime party are in development...who's in? Might play some LAN games as well. UT runs on most of the computers, and I think Warcraft 3 runs on 3 of them. Hmm...

Computers we own:

Navi (Mine)
Asmodeus (Chris's)
Mrs. Tigglewinky (the laptop)
Buddha (currently dead)
Cleopatra, aka "The Abomination"
Betty Lou

Navi and Asmodeus can run everything ok... Mrs. Tigglewinky, Cleopatra, and Betty Lou can conceivably run Unreal. I think Navi, Asmodeus and Cleopatra are the only ones who can run Warcraft 3. Sooo....yeah. That's the breakdown. This is assuming our circuit breaker can handle the strain, and that we have enough network cables.

LAN party! LAN party!

Haiku of the day:

1337 1i|<3 j00r /\/\0/\/\

137'5 937 |)|2|_|/\/|< 4/\/|) p14'/
14/\/ P4|27'/ 4/\/|) 4/\/i/\/\3
90|) 1'/\/\ 5|_|(|-| 4 933|<

It's so true.
Saturday, July 05, 2003

Haiku of the day #2:

Too Damn Tired

I said I would clean
But I fell asleep at six
Should have had coffee.

Fun with haikus!

Friday, July 04, 2003

4:00 AM, and I have sworn not to sleep until I conquer the mess that is our house...I want to have people over, damnit (read: drunken anime party), which I can't do until you can walk on the floor without stepping on something. Watch me get like halfway done cleaning and then fall asleep in our giant pile of dirty laundry. Eww.

In other news:

Like the wastrel I am, I have dropped Aikido. While it made sense at the time, right now I'm beginning to feel the waves of guilt and stupidity breaking on the coral reefs of my mind. First of all, it was my only class all summer term and if I can't stick with it....well, that's just pathetic. Second of all, have made no progress on getting a job. This is much, much worse than you think. The graphic design company we're starting is...going slowly. I really need to start throwing myself into that. Not that I think it'll amount to anything besides side cash, but at this point any option is starting to sound good. (Please god, not food service though... I just wouldn't be able to take it).

Aomatsu was so tasty and good...considering my financial situation I really shouldn't be going out to eat that often, but every once in awhile you need some sushi to lift your spirits, yes? Yes. Stabman: Would like to meet your friend there, would like to work there, if they're hiring any time soon....think your friend would know anything? (Can you say: "dream job"?)

Other news...was surprised by "William's" sister coming down from Portland (for the record: "William" is our paranoid friend who doesn't like his name online. So he goes by William, and I tease him by sticking it in quotes all the time). Anyway, "William" was surprised too, as he has access to neither phone nor internet (unless he goes to OSU) and got her e-mail today, which was, of course, the day she was coming. Much scrambling and trying to figure out how she was getting here (train or bus?)....the boys ended up going to the bus station and waiting, and it turned out she took the train...the train doesn't stop in Corvallis, it stops in Albany. Once this was figured out, much scrambling to get to Albany, to meet "William's" sister who had by this time been in Albany for awhile.

First impressions of "William's" sister: Athletic and exciteable. Kind of reminds me of a girl I knew from Bend, but I'm not really sure why. Seems nice, but I'm quite sure our interests would clash, since I'm a sworn geek, and she' know, athletic. With the moving, and the running, and the...the... outside. Don't see much family resemblance between her and "William"....yet.

Haiku of the day:

Internet Addict

Online for two min.
Oh! Where does that link go to?
What? It's been four hours?!

Well, I guess it's time to start cleaning.

So full of sushi.....

*falls over*

Well, we're back.
Tastiest place ever.
Will definitely be going there more.
I've posted WAYYY to often today.
Thursday, July 03, 2003

Bah. Turns out they don't open 'till 5:00. Silly Japanese places with their silly hours...


Well, we're off to try this "Aomatsu" place...assuming its open. Hmm. Maybe we should call before we walk over there.

*hungry* (It's 4:00 and I haven't eaten yet...Sushi for breakfast!)

Yeah...I tend to forget trivial things, like eating.

More koans for Surreal: (from the Jargon Dictionary)

A novice was trying to fix a broken Lisp machine by turning the power off and on.
Knight, seeing what the student was doing, spoke sternly: "You cannot fix a machine by just power-cycling it with no understanding of what is going wrong."
Knight turned the machine off and on.
The machine worked.

In the days when Sussman was a novice, Minsky once came to him as he sat hacking at the PDP-6.
"What are you doing?", asked Minsky.
"I am training a randomly wired neural net to play Tic-Tac-Toe" Sussman replied.
"Why is the net wired randomly?", asked Minsky.
"I do not want it to have any preconceptions of how to play", Sussman said.
Minsky then shut his eyes.
"Why do you close your eyes?", Sussman asked his teacher.
"So that the room will be empty."
At that moment, Sussman was enlightened.

And, my personal favorite:

A disciple of another sect once came to Drescher as he was eating his morning meal.
"I would like to give you this personality test", said the outsider, "because I want you to be happy."
Drescher took the paper that was offered him and put it into the toaster, saying: "I wish the toaster to be happy, too."

Happy toaster!

Spiffy. Looks like it decided to make the cam work after all.

On a completely random note: Cheese porn.

I'm not even kidding

I fear for my soul.

Well, tripod is being stupid and refusing to update my cam WAS a picture of my rat, but nooooo. Stupid Tripod.

It does this sometimes.
Wednesday, July 02, 2003

Met up with Nayno et all at the library today, hung out making characters. Had a damn good time, too. Not only did I get to meet a bunch of cool guys, I also have a badass cat girl to play in our upcoming game...I'll definitely draw her, and anyone else's character, if I get a description. *Thumbs up* Not promising anything spectacular, mind you.

Chris and I drove to Albany to make a deposit at stupid Key bank, which is widespread in Boise, but not Oregon, apparently. Closest one is in Albany. Anyway, had an interesting time (my sense of direction = Ryoga). We were also going to go out for Chinese (damn that tasty sushi, Teith!) but the place we passed looked shitty, so we ended up driving back and going to Jack in the Box instead (since it was fairly late). The disturbing thing about the whole trip was the noises my car started making once we were in Albany...this horrendous scraping noise every time I hit the brakes. So now, among other problems, we think the brake pads are wearing out. Damn, I need a job. If only to pay for rent, food, and car repairs. I really don't need much else.

Well, maybe DSL.

Nayno: Ok...I'll probably be mildly hungover, but I'll head over to the library around 2. Will probably be wearing shades, as light = headache.

Went to a party last night, talked to Cliff a bit...which, quite honestly pissed me off because he seems to think that:

A. Yes, he did kiss me (he didn't, he was very, very drunk). And
B. Anything I tell him is fair game for him to pass on because I must "really want people to know it" or I wouldn't tell him things.

Bullshit. Sometimes you just need someone to rant drunkenly to, and you need them to hold their fucking tongue the next day. Apparently Cliff hasn't grasped the fact that I don't have many people in Corvallis that I'm willing to open up to. He earned my trust breifly, but now he's going to have to work to get it back again. Bitch.

Anyway, later in said party, Cliff had to go to sleep (has an appointment or something early tomorrow...can't really remember, as I was avoiding/ignoring him at that point) so a bunch of us went to Shari's where I ranted loudly about how sorry I was our server had to put up with us, how I couldn't draw, and probably lots of other things, too.

Then we walked back to Lisa's (and Cliff's, now), dropped most of the guys off, and "William" and I walked home, stopping close to the park so I could rant some more at him. Sorry, "William" shouldn't have to put up with my crap.

Then we walked over to my house (on the other side of the park), passing a bum sleeping on one of the benches...since it was cold out, and at this point I really felt I needed to redeem myself as a good person, we walked over to my car and got a blanket for him, which he appreciated. So that was my good deed of the day, among multiple failures.
Also, in an effort to be a better girlfriend, made Chris breakfast this morning, because I really don't want to fuck up this relationship, despite all the times I've so blatantly sabotaged it.

Man, no one should have to put up with me.

So very drunk.
Always make an ass of myself. Grrrr.
So stupid.

At least I can still spell.

I'm the most horrible girlfriend in the world!
Chris: Don't argue, it's true.

Still not particularly cheered up, but I'm working on it. Trying to get paperwork done...ick. Paperwork.

This is fun and amusing, and yes, I stole the link from PA. It's not that I particularly like Linux, or even use it (or know HOW to use it, for that matter), it's that I resent the fact that Microsoft owns my soul because I'm so used to windows that I'll never try anything else.

More later. Aikido tonight.
Tuesday, July 01, 2003


I was supposed to do a whole bunch of stuff today and I just spaced all of it. I feel like crap. This is not just spacing stuff. This is spacing stuff when I'm already feeling like crap because I haven't written anything in over a year, and can't draw or design as well as real graphic design students. I don't know what I'm doing, and it seems like lately I've been the epitome (is that how you spell it?) of lethargy. I need to get stuff done. I need a job. I have to pay rent. I need a swift kick in the ass.
Also haven't heard back from the hospital yet. Nyargh.

Oh, and...nayno? Surreal? Someone? Need help making a character? *lost, confused nooB...*

Oh, and yes, I'm feeling all confused again.
(I have to decide? What?? Were you really referring to how you were feeling?)

Goddamnit, I always fuck things up. Continuously!

"...jiyuu wo takaku kawasareta ki mo suru ga
kokoro made yasuku utta oboe wa nai..."

Had weird dreams last night...

I was with the Foothills gang (Foothills = the private school I went to from 7th-9th grade). Anyway, every year each class goes on a school trip, and one year it was dream was that we were going back to Spain for some reason...then I think there was something wrong with our tickets or something...can't really remember. Anyway, the dream itself isn't important, it just yanked up a lot of past memories for me. The Spain trip holds a lot of mixed feelings. On the one hand, it was a great opportunity (yadda yadda), I got to spend time with my friends and wander around a foreign country, on the other hand...I got chewed out a LOT. I got lost the first day (we were supposed to have partners, to prevent this, but mine wandered off because she was kind of flaky) and when I found the group again Susan (head teacher and source of most mixed feelings) practically screamed at me. After that I'm not really sure what went wrong, but I seemed to piss off Susan every step of the way...she even threatened to send me back to the US early.

When you're young, fucking up constantly, being yelled at, and not knowing what you did can kind of fuck with your self-esteem.

The problem with Susan is that I respected her so much because it seemed like she knew everything...she was honestly one of the most intelligent people I've ever met (I know, she's a teacher, but that doesn't necessarily mean anything). So of course I wanted her to like me, but it always seemed I managed to fuck it up somehow.
I remember one time when we were doing a fundraiser (selling polish sausages or some shit like that) and I was supposed to bring ketchup. Susan said (in a kind of joking tone, but semi-serious) "Honestly Katie, if you had a brain you'd be dangerous." My dad was there at the time, and he got pissed off. He didn't say anything directly to Susan, but when we drove off to get ketchup I remember him fuming and saying "You don't have to go back (to the fundraiser)" I did, though. I knew they needed my help (this was in 9th grade, and there were 4 people in my class, counting me. All girls). Later, Susan sent me a card with an apology, but stuff like that still kind of sticks with you.
Sooooo...yeah. Not the best way to wake up.

Should have gone over to Stephanie's last night, as it sounded like they were having a good time, and I still need to talk to Cliff/Stephanie a bit...but I was just too damn tired. After only 4 hours of sleep I wasn't really in a condition to go anywhere by 11, which is when she called.

I'm currently listening to one of the songs from's the song the watch plays which then turns into this harder rendition of the same's bittersweet and FABULOUS. More about Noir...I LOVE Kirika, but so far (we've got the first 3 episodes, so it may be presumptuous to judge this early) Mireille hasn't impressed me. Kirika ROCKS though.

Monday, June 30, 2003

Well, ended up crashing around 8 am...slept until 12, so I got some sleep, but not much.

It's too fucking hot, especially w. sleeves, goddamnit. We're off to the library (because, for chrissakes, it's right there, and it has air conditioning).

And Sandman. Did I mention it had Sandman?
"I am following my fish" -Delirium
Sunday, June 29, 2003






Eating: Cereal
Reading: "The Ships of Earth" by Orson Scott Card
Listening to: "Dog new tricks" by Garbage
Playing: Unreal Tournament
Current Arch-nemesis: Our filthy house!!!

craving: Grilled Cheese & French Fries


Fight Club

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