Poking around (because sometimes it's fun to pick artists at random). Anyway, I was browsing the J-pop section, and stumbled across Yuka Itoh, who is gorgeous but has song descriptions suitable for Engrish. One example (from a song called "Dream Pocket," which I'm currently downloading--I'll let you know if it's any good):

"what is contained in the pocket of a mama kangaroo ?what is contained in your pocket? A dream and a star will enter and it may be?D"

I'm also currently downloading "Slow Moon," which is described as:

"The one girl stands still in the urban evening. She is waiting for the far promise. She is waiting for someone. The tenderness and a solitary crevice. The moon which shines softly in the valley of buildings."

I don't know about you, but the line "The tenderness and a solitary crevice" sounds mildly obscene, and makes me giggle. Silly translation errors.

Ok, Dream Pocket is done, and it's....frighteningly cute. Oh, I see! It's filed under "General Children's Music" *feels silly* Well, it does sound like something off Sesame Street. "Slow Moon," I see, is filed under J-pop, so maybe it'll be less cutesy.

In other news... current projects include building pages for the Church (that's the Church of Spike Speigel, for those of you who don't know), and building a page called "I Hate You, Sally Lockhart." Or maybe not. That is, I do hate Sally Lockhart, but I haven't decided yet whether or not it's a passive distaste or an active loathing. I'll decide after I finish The Tiger in the Well, but A Shadow in the North was a peice of crap. And yes, i know they're intended for younger readers, but that doesn't mean I can't hate her. She's so your typical "plucky heroine." More ranting on that if I decide to build the page.

Ah! "Slow Moon" is done. It' A bit too mellow for me right now. I'll probably end up keeping "Dream Pocket" for the same reason I keep "Choco Flake" by Strange Advertise, which is I'm insane and they happen to amuse me. Whenever I hear "Choco Flake" I giggle. God(Spike) knows why. Probably for the same reason I find Engrish so amusing.

Thursday, July 31, 2003


You Are Edward From "Edward Scissorhands."

You are very shy and often misunderstood. Innocent, sweet, and artistic, you like to pass your days by daydreaming and expressing yourself through the arts. You are a truly unique individual. Unfortunately, you are quite lonely, and few people truly understand you.

Take The Johnny Depp Quiz!

...and that's all I have to say about THAT.


Well, we're going down to the employment agency as soon as Chris gets back from class. I need a job. I have enough money fo this month's rent, and that's it. Not enough for next month, even assuming I don't eat. It's bad. Chris insists he can pay a month or so on his own and I can pay him back, but...hell, I'm not even comfortable having him pay for movie tickets. I have to get better at accepting things from people... "William" feels like he can't even share food with us (even though we share with him sometimes) because I always say "No, it's your food, you shouldn't have to share." I should be able to be generous with people, but also accept things back. Gotta work on that.

Anyway, I'm kind of worried about the employment agency because it's taken me so long to get back to them...and all I had to do was fill out some paperwork! It makes me feel guilty and stupid (it takes me months to fill out paperwork?) so I'm pretty nervous about going down there (what...they're going to yell at me or something?). I know, it doesn't make sense. I just feel bad.

Other news... got woken up this morning by a knock on our door...Chris jumped up and answered it while I stayed in bed because I was lazy (and...erm...indecent). Anyway, he was gone a long time, and it turned out the people knocking were Jehova's Witnesses. I couldn't hear anything because the bedroom door was closed and they were out on the porch, but he says they started quoting the bible at him and he would interrupt them and finish their quotes until they finally asked what religion he was, and he said he was athiest. Anyway, I guess they weren't satisfied with their trouncing, so they're coming back next Wednesday. (Fight, fight!)

Alas, I won't be here...a heads-up for the people who don't know yet: next week I'm going to be house-sitting in Eugene for Chris's parents. Actually, I'm looking forward to some time by myself, hanging out in the tree and playing with the kitty. Whee!

Alright...I promised myself I'd only get on for 10 minutes, and it's been quite a bit longer than that...things to do!

(Today's cam picture is from Scary Go Round, a damn fine comic with a wicked british sense of humor. There are some really good lines. One of my other favorites is "Do fire and petrol go together? I mean, like, scientifically speakin' ")
Wednesday, July 30, 2003


You know you're a geek when...

You're hung over (to the point where you may still be slightly drunk) and you can still use words like "conjunction" and "alliteration."

*remembers reciting entire scenes from "Monty Python and the Holy Grail" last night to test how coherent she was*
Aww fuck. I'm such a dork -_-;;
Tuesday, July 29, 2003


What a night. What a night. Went to Lisa's, got quite (QUITE) drunk. This meant, of course, that I made an ass out of myself (as I usually do!) and probably babbled incoherently at people...can't really remember straight. Anyway, suffice to say I probably acted like an idiot, but it was still quite a night. Won't go into full details. Head still hurts. Argh.

Threw up a little when I got home, woke up really goddamn early this morning by spilling cold fucking water all over myself (lovely way to wake up). Still have a splitting headache, and am feeling particularly surly. Nnngh.

Got a nice backrub from Tia last night though ;)


Too damn hot to do anything. I should know...I went out and sunbathed for awhile ^_^ Sucks to be me, I know. Balthamos (the rat) is stretched out up against my glass of ice water...he's so flat and cute! Poor guy. I'd hate to have a coat of fur in this heat.

Chris and I got too hot here, so we ended up going to the library for a few hours...hooray for having a public, air conditioned building right down the street! I was going to get the next book in the Homecoming series, as well as the next book in the Dune series, but the Dune one was out, and I forgot to look for the other one... I did get something by Mercedes Lackey, and an audiobook that looked decent ("Briar Rose" by Jane Yolen, who's written lots of other things).

Still need to finish these Phillip Pullman books though (not His Dark Materials...this is "Sally Lockhart"), even though they're meant for younger shows, too. Sally annoys the hell out of me--your typical "plucky heroine," but maybe a bit more stubborn. I'll post a review when I'm done, if any of you care.

I think it's sandwich time, batman!

To the sandwich mobile!
Monday, July 28, 2003


Sheep and more sheep.

"Gentle graze sheep over snow"

New layout!

Alrighty! Looks like the layout worked. I'm trying to keep it nice and simple, in case you couldn't tell. Most of the art is currently down, and the writing section, but I'll get those back up...erm...sometime? Yes, sometime. In the meantime, please excuse/let me know about any broken links or pictures...I'd appreciate it.

In the meantime, I've decided I'm starting a cult. This goes out to anyone who's seen Cowboy Bebop and knows that Spike Speigel is god. He's suave, he's cheeky, he's daring, he's cute...he's the epitome of "cool." The cult, therefore, is The Church of Spike Speigel and you don't really have to do anything. Just tell everyone how cool Spike is.

Because, hey: it's better than Christianity.

And...sorry Andrea, but Spike could kick Michael Flatley's ass.

"Don't leave food in the fridge...that is the lesson"

Well, I managed (somehow) to make 4 days on only 16 hours of sleep. Was very dizzy/groggy most of the time, with a very, very short attention span.

Chris and I argued last night, which was, I think, partially due to the fact that we were both very tired. Doing a bit better now that we're both rested, except...I'm trying to find a job. This is good--it's good that I'm actually getting up the courage to go look again (which was largely what the argument was about...I haven't been looking for one as much as I should, but I'm scared-- scared of people, scared of rejection...too many things to list.)-- but even just looking is depressing and discouraging. No one's going to hire me! I have no applicable skills! At best I'll end up working at Burger King or McDonald's, and I don't think I could stand that.

I don't want to go back to Boise.

And you know what? Chris is right, and I know it...if I end up back in Boise it'll be my own damn fault.

God damnit. Why can't I ever get anything done?
Friday, July 25, 2003

Well, managed to stay up for 38 hours...I could have gone longer, but I realized that I'd be completely useless for anything today if I did. So I slept, rather than waste a day just trying to stay awake. Now I'm feeling totally groggy and out of's kind of weird. I got about 10 hours of sleep, so that should have been plenty, right? I don't even feel tired, just spacey, like I'm not even here. Weird. Hopefully I'll snap out of it after I wake up some more. It makes my fingers feel funny while I'm typing o_O

New web design should be up...sometime. I could finish it fairly easily if I wasn't so out of it, but I also have paperwork to do, so...we'll see. It's much slimmer than this version, so it should work well on 800x600. w00t.

Alright time for some tea. My tummy hurts. Grr.

*slaps self in the face a couple of times*
Wake up, dammnit!
Wednesday, July 23, 2003

Woo! No sleep!

Web design so far is looking quite spiffy, and is also quite obviously designed while under the influences of being sad at Cowboy Bebop. So sad! I watched the last episode again while Chris was at class, and couldn't stop crying. I'm such a sucker.

Web design would be going much faster if I had an attention span at this point. I 'v only had 2 cups of coffee, and I'm still somewhat coherent (open to debate, of course). But I haven't misspelled anything yet, have I? Perhaps. Anyway! I'm going to see how long I can keep going....maybe I can make it another night. If any of you happen to be up late and I'm online, talk to me for a bit to help me stay awake, yes? If not I'll just end up watching Digi Charat for hours, since in my present state I'd probably find it way too amusing (which I already do anyway).

Oh! That reminds me...this is on my links page, but I don't think I've explained it to most of you yet: This is my country on Nation States. It's an amusing little thing where you sign up and get your own "country" to rule. You can be kind and just, or evil and tyrannical (I'm a psychotic dictatorship!). Good for some "I'm-too-hot-to-move-away-from-the-computer" summer fun. Read the rules, and if it sounds interesting you should join our region! It's called The Happy Land of Pudding. Who wouldn't want to live there? We also have a large sheep population! Come on down!

...I know, I'm insane. Sleep deprivation is my excuse! BWAHAHAHAHA!

Awww...Balthamos (the rat) is being absolutely adorable right now. He's all stretched out, trying to stay cool. Cute little rat.

More coffee? Why yes, thank you. That would be very nice.
Tuesday, July 22, 2003

Eh. Have decided to say "screw the cam portal thing"...I don't have that much time on my hands, and most of the people on there just seem to be on for the attention/sex.

Also! I'm staying up tonight...didn't feel like sleeping. May re-design site because I'm crazy like that...this design is cute, but too wide. We'll see how bored I get.

Got really annoyed at Chris & "William," which, I realize now, was me overreacting. We watched the end of Cowboy Bebop, and I thought it was the saddest thing EVER. Chris and "William" didn't get it at first, and so were less than struck mournful by the tragic ending. I got annoyed (shouldn't have... no big deal if someone can't empathize with a cartoon character)...anyway, my overreaction may also have been PMS related, so, who knows.

Still: Bebop = FABULOUS. Oh god.

Still haven't seen the movie yet, which I'm guessing has no real impact on the series, since...well, yes. Shan't spoil it for those of you who haven't seen it.

Forgive spelling errors, as I'm very, very damn tired. (3:00 am)
Haven't had coffee yet.
Coffee now! NYARGH!

Argh. Stupid Tripod's refusing to upload. It does this. So the cam's just going to look all crappy and stretchy until I can fix it.

Damn you, Tripod!
Monday, July 21, 2003

Well, slightly wider layout...if you're using 800x600 resolution I apologize, but I'm going to try to submit my cam to a few places, and all the cams I've seen are much larger than mine, so I thought I'd better follow that format.

Damn it's hot today. And I have paperwork to finish, so...more later.


Yes, whew.

Good, crazy weekend. Had lots and lots of people drop by, which we're not really used to, so Chris and I are just hanging out by ourselves tonight. It was good though...we had a lot of fun with everyone. Andrea definitely has to come visit again. Good times. We spent today trying to get suntans and then running through the mister over in front of the DaVinci days stuff. Wheeee!

Later we were going to go to this "community concert" thing with Teith, but we ended up having a picnic instead...I love being flexible and spontaneous like that. It was our first time at Avery park, and I have to say that I really liked it...I think I'm getting too used to Central Park (since it's right there) so it'll be nice to have somewhere else to go hang out if I need a change of scenery.

Other news...umm...nothing, really ^_^

I'll keep it short and sweet tonight, and post some more tomorrow...

Hope you all had a blast at DaVinci days!
Sunday, July 20, 2003

Fun day!

Wow...I've been so social lately I don't even know what to do with myself. Not to mention the fact that "DaVinci Days" (Corvallis' art thing? It's fun. Seems to be just a big community shindig. Good times!) is right in our backyard. Sooo...people! All over!
I'd like to mention also, that I'm feeling very, very flaky tonight, so this post will probably jump all over the place.
Umm...anyway, right now, "William," Chris, Andrea and I are watching Celebrity Jeopardy. Hooray! more flakiness for now. I'll just make more of an idiot of myself -_-;;

Hee hee hee! Sean Connery! Hee hee hee!
Saturday, July 19, 2003

Meet Oliver.

Sleep now.
Friday, July 18, 2003

Thought this quiz was damn good.

Threat rating: extremely low. You may think you can
subvert the government, but if you should try
you will be smited mightily because God likes
us best.

What threat to the Bush administration are you?
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Not actually an athiest.
(Chris says: "You are as far as Republicans are concerned." Yeah, true.)
Thursday, July 17, 2003

MUAHAHAHA!!! ph34r!

You are Junpei.
Which MegaTokyo Character are You?

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Junpei's so cute!
I definitely don't worship Largo though.

WEIRD evening. Not really in that anything unusual happened, just that we tried a lot of weird things.
Let's Aomatsu we got Salmon roll (nothing special, but cheap), the Vegas roll (possibly the BEST SUSHI EVER! So good!), and I, being me weird experimental self, decided to try "Uzura" which was listed under the nigiri sushi. Now, has anyone tried the "tamago"? It's basically egg, cooked in a rectangle set on top of some rice and held there with a little bit of nori. Well, "Uzura" is quail egg (it was $1.50, so I figured it'd be a nice cheap little filler), and I figured it would be something like that...quail egg, cooked and stuck on some rice. Oh no. OH no. Far too simple!

What we got was two little raw quail eggs with the tops busted off, with the egg stuck in some wasabi so it wouldn't fall off the tray.
I looked at Chris.
Chris looked at me.

Long story short, we both tried it (after much hesitation on my part, but fearless daring on Chris's part). It was...odd. I swallowed it quickly, so I couldn't really guage the flavor, but Chris said it wasn't so good. I asked him if it was as bad as tequila though, and he said no. The thing that was weird is the texture, kind of slimy, and the yolk's just a big lump. Odd. Like I said, I swallowed it fast so I wouldn't have to taste it.

Anyway, then we walked home, past the park (where the band was playing, and there were a lot of families and impressionable young children). Needless to say, goth-ed out as I was, I got some stares and dirty looks. Foolish mortals.

Anyway, we got home and decided to have some desert, namely, ice cream. Then we remembered a jell-o recipe (similar to this one ) I'd torn out of a magazine, and decided to make that. Basically it's a jell-o milkshake. you put jell-o, some ice cream, and a lot of milk and shake it up. We had lemon jell-o, which sounded good.

So we make this milkshake, and it's...well, it's ok. But then I go "We could put tequila in it" (Genius). It kind of tastes like eggnog. It's CERTAINLY not as nasty-ass as tequila usually is, and therefore an improvement.

Sooooo...all in all, a very experiment-filled evening.

Tuesday, July 15, 2003

Hooray! Aomatsu!

Chris is so nice!

No, will not be wearing kitty ears out...I'm not quite that brave.
Will, however, be wearing badass shiny pants.

Wow...lots of posts to reply to o_O

FizzyLatte: YES! You should bring some girly movies and we'll kick the boys over to "William's". Bring nail polish, too. Gotta have nail polish. We'll watch movies and get all nice and then go for teriyaki or something.

Teith: Yeah, the archives suck. It'd be nice to fix them.

Nayno: Why would I shoot you? Silly thing. ^_^

Stufey: Yeah, I'm sorry girl's night wasn't like that...just feeling like my usual tomboy self that night, I guess...well, and goth. It was still a good evening though, right? Just let me know when it's a pajama party next time, and I'll come more appropriately dressed ^_^

Surreal: Yeah, Xenocide's ok...Ender's Game was still the best book though. Also, I have this crazy thing with Orson Scott Card now...ever since I found out he was Mormon I start to see it in all of his writing (not Ender's Game...maybe one of the reasons I think it's the best). If you've ever read the Homecoming series, you can kind of see it in there...and...and oh god, whatever you do, don't read Folk of the Fringe. I only made it through the first story, which was basically: "It's post apocalyptic earth, and the only good, god-fearing people left are the mormons, damnit. Everyone else is selfish and corrupt." Soooo...yeah. Everyone knows how much I love organized religion >_<

Anyway, last night was meant to be "Katie is a GIRL!" night, but I ended up getting all cranky at Chris, which was unfair of me. I was being a whiney attention whore, and he was doing his own thing, and I shouldn't have been so sensitive. Anyway, I think it's all worked out now.

That's all for now

My hair's black! o_O

Currently feeling very uncute.

Part of this, I know, is due to the fact that I constantly hang out with boys, and am generally accepted as "one of the guys." This isn't a bad thing...this is how it's always been for me, even in Boise. It's just that some days (while I know they know I'm a girl) I get tired of being treated that way, and have to get all feminine on their asses.

Therefore, I'm declaring tonight to be "Katie Is A GIRL!" night. I'm going to dye my hair, because I'm starting to hate it again (another one of the cycles I go through...right after I dye my hair I love it, but as time goes by and the color fades, I start to despise it and feel horrible and ugly), paint my nails, pretty myself up...all that good stuff. Then we're going to play Unreal in all its happy goodness, and maybe I'll finish off the tequila.

Hair is going to be DARK! And spikey! And cute! I'll post pictures!
Hmm...think hair may need a trim, actually. It's getting a bit less pixie-ish and a bit more mullet-ish.
Ewwww. Mullet. EEEWWWW!!!
Monday, July 14, 2003

Hmm...perhaps the last post was a bit of an overreaction.
Though I still want to kick one person, everyone else is off the hook.

Anyway....bored. Lots of quizzes.

You would taste like a Lemon!

What do you taste like?
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Holy shit. I can't believe I got that. o_O Go me!

Punk Rock
PUNK ROCK : Like a revived species of nearly extinct salamander, Punk Rock Asian Girls are a rare type, but slowly climbing up to existence again. Your passions are mainly music and anime and you've probably dyed your hair some odd color of the rainbrow. And if you haven't, you probably will. You often feel like you are misunderstood, but don't worry. Just think about thongs. Very funny.

What Asian Girl Are You?

Hooray! Asian girls are pretty!


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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Yeah, ok, I can see that.

It's occuring to me that I'm getting better and better at acting sane around people.
Sunday, July 13, 2003

Slightly buzzed. Currently want to kick more than one person.


Ok, so last night started off really well.

Teith said he could come over without me having to talk to his parents, hooked up with Jamie and got alcohol, picked up Chipmunk from the bus station, all that good stuff. People showed up a bit late, but that was cool, and the party stayed small and was pretty laid back...didn't end up watching that much Anime because as everyone started getting buzzed it ended up being more fun talking to people. So we drank and talked, listened to some music, which was fun.

Cliff called at around....9:30? I'm not sure. I know we went to the park around 10:00 and swang on the swings and sat on the grass and talked. Then we came back and played Unreal for awhile, which was also fun...and insane, since I know for me, at least, it was hell trying to shoot anything or go ANYWHERE, but whatever.

Then Cliff came over. We talked for awhile, and then we got the genius idea to walk over to Lisa's, since she had something going on over at her place. I will never leave the fucking house again while drunk. Ever. Even to just go to the park.

Walking up Monroe (towards 11th) I notice a cop drive by. This freaks me out a little, but I'm trying to act calm/sober. Let me just say here that I have an unholy terror of cops....even if I'm not doing anything wrong. I got brought home once and it was the scariest thing that ever happened to me...we were drunk at the time, but the cop didn't know that...he only knew we were out past curfew. So it wasn't as bad as it could have been, and also I think my parents are a lot more laid back than Teith's.

So anyway, the cop drives by, I freak out but try to look calm. Next thing I know, cop has turned around and is flashing his lights at us.


He stops us--that is, Cliff, Chipmunk, Chris, me, and Teith..."William" is farther ahead--and asks us if we were just at the Fox & Firkin. We say no, we've been home all evening. He says he got a report of someone matching Teith's (and Cliff's, but does he bug Cliff? No.) description trespassing, and wants to know if Teith has any I.D. on him. Teith says no, he doesn't. Cop asks how old Teith is, and pretty much singles him out and says he's not stopping the rest of us. At this point I'm standing there in horror/desperation trying to think of anything I can do, but I can't. All I can do is sit there and watch. Cliff (who is, I think, more drunk than the rest of us, since he was drunk before he came over to our place) is standing a little ways back with Chipmunk, and Chris and I are standing closer to the cop. What Chipmunk tells me later is that Cliff keeps saying "Ok, let's go. Come on guys, let's go." like a little bitch. He's lucky I didn't hear this or the cop would have had to separate us. Anyway, I'm standing there trying to figure out some way to tell Teith how sorry I am...he keeps mouthing something (please go?) so we finally figure there's nothing we can do, and head back to my place.

Cliff is still trying to get us to go to Lisa's.

I tell him forcefully "No. We're not going after what just happened" (Or something to the effect) and he departs. Chipmunk, Chris and I head back home and then call Lisa's to see if William's over there (he is) so he heads back to our place.

Chipmunk goes to sleep, while I proceed to rant drunkenly about how much I hate cops, what an asshole Cliff is, and how he's only interested in something if he can drink it, smoke it, or fuck it. I know this because

1. Whenever he's around me he blatantly ignores Chris, as if doing this will give him a better chance with me.
2. He still thinks he kissed me when he was wasted, despite all my arguments to the contrary.
3. He spreads shit around without any notion of loyalty to one's friends.
4. Speaking of loyalty? Doesn't care if we just screwed someone over because hey, there's a party at Lisa's!

Yeah, I would say Cliff is in a fuckload of trouble, as far as I'm concerned.

Still can't read properly, but too full of adrenaline to sleep it off...ahh, four and a half hours of sleep mixed with the lingering effects of alcohol.
Sorry for any typos.

P.S. imood doesn't have "wrathful" as a choice of emotion (though I've submitted it oh so many times) so as long as it says "vengeful"....replace that in your head with "filled with a mighty and righteous wrath of SMITING." Or just "wrathful" will do.

Saturday, July 12, 2003

Oh God...I'm so sorry, Teith....

I'm so sorry....

I'm scared. I'm scared of what's going to happen, I'm scared that I might not get to hang out with you any more because your parents will hate me. I'm scared that you'll get in trouble and your parents will be paranoid for the rest of your teenage years and it will be all my fault. I'm angry at the cop for stopping, and I'm really, really godamn angry at Cliff because as we were leaving he still wanted to go to Lisa's and pretend nothing had happend. Doesn't he care about anyone? Oh god I'm pissed. He's going to get screamed at when I'm sober.

I'm so, so sorry.....

This is all my fault.

Teith: Ehhh? he going to call me, or drop you off, or what? Because if he drops you off I probably shouldn't look this goth. I'm going to the bus station around 3:40 to pick up a friend (CHIPMUNK! YAAAAAAAAY!), so...let me know what's going on, ok? You have my number. I'll try to stay offline 'till then. Or if it's busy you could try Yahoo and tell me to get my addicted ass offline.

Adult? Who, me?
Friday, July 11, 2003

You represent... insanity.
You represent... insanity.
You're quite a quirky little creature. You're
emotions are varying. You may appear childish
and innocent, but you have a tendency to freak
out. You're incredibly random, but it's good
to be unique. People know you're an odd one,
but you certainly don't mind.

What feeling do you represent?
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That's all for much to do! Ack!

Chipmunk's coming to the party! HOORAAAAAAAAAYYYY!!!!!

P.S. If anyone can bring shot glasses, that'd be great too...
Thursday, July 10, 2003

Ok, here's all the information:

Time: 7:30pm, Friday
Place: Our house
Invited: Anyone! Just give me a heads up so I know who's coming, ok? Also, if it gets too big we might need to move the party, since our house is tiny and walls are thin and crappy, and we have neighbors...
Watching: Cowboy Bebop, Noir, and at this point I'm leaning towards Chobits, since watching Lain when you're drunk probably isn't all that much fun, and Inuyasha's so popular I'm guessing most people have seen it before. I know Bebop falls into this category too, I like Bebop ^_^
Drinking: Wine Blenders ($10.00) and tequila (?). If we get too many people, we might need some more. Have to talk to Jamie about how much tequila costs...chipping in (if you can) in is a Very Nice Thing, since we are poor, jobless college students (guilt trip, guilt trip).

Soooo...yes. Today I'm cleaning the house and calling Jamie to figure out alcohol-buying logistics. Go me!

Teith: haven't heard from you yet...can you still come? What's up with the parent situation?

Ok, it finally updated the cam. Silly Tripod. Sooo...I crashed for perhaps 2 hours just now (more than I meant to). Feeling somewhat refreshed, so I think I can make it through the rest of the day now.

Stufey: Like I said, anyone's welcome, but sadly we're not going to be watching Spirited far what we've got lined up is:

The Cowboy Bebop Movie (and possibly some episodes)
Noir (first 3 episodes)

And one or two of the following (not sure yet, so we'll probably put it to a vote):


I'm still hoping this thing doesn't get too big because A. I have neighbors and thin walls, and that isn't a happy combination, and B. We're all going to be watching it on a monitor. So far it doesn't sound that bad, size-wise though. Wheeeeeeee!

Stab-Man: That's right, I forgot you don't like vodka....ok, we'll go with tequila. Everyone else ok with that? I'll pick up some lemons, too....aww crap, I don't have any shot glasses though. I lost my bright pink one (god knows where)....if anyone has any spare shot glasses, then bring them, eh?

Hm. Hungry.

I guess "no sleep, burning lots of extra calories" does that to you.
Wednesday, July 09, 2003

Well, Tripod's being silly and refuses to update my cam (again). Suffice to say, it's a happy happy art preview, so look forward to that when it does decide to work.

So mucking tired. We stayed up all night, and it's about 7:30 now...going to try to make it through the day, but I'm guessing we'll be going to bed quite early. Oh god I'm tired. More coffee.

Hmm...have to call Jamie today about buying for Friday and get that all worked out. I'm still not sure who all is coming, so PLEASE let me know if you know anyone who wants to come. Trying to figure out a rough number here. For sure we're getting: a bottle of vodka (or tequila...let me know which you prefer, and then I'll figure out which is cheaper, eh?), and a bottle of these "wine blender" things from Safeway (strawberry!) because I want to try them. I actually considered just going cheap wine all the way, but it's nice to have something harder around, for variety ^_^

Andrea: I'm awful! Don't tell your mother/dad? I promise not to corrupt you horribly (like I corrupted my brother [and yours]) unless you want to be corrupted. Did that make sense? Can't tell. So sleep deprived. Gah.

More later, when even more sleep deprived. Hoom.

Never seen a blue sky
Yeah I can feel it reaching out
And moving closer
There's something about blue
Asked myself what it's all for
You know the funny thing about it
I couldn't answer
No I couldn't answer

Things have turned a deeper shade of blue

...move among the stars
You know they really aren't so far
Tuesday, July 08, 2003

Last night was...interesting.
Difficult, too, and somewhat depressing, so I don't really want to go into it. Maybe some other time.
Anyway, plans are still on for the anime party...if you want to chip in for alcohol (which would be much appreciated, as I still dont know how many people are coming) I need the money by tomorrow or early Thursday. Jamie said he'd buy for us, so I can get the money to him Thurday evening, probably, and get that all set up. Let me know if you have any beverage preferences, eh?

Ok...that's all I really feel like posting for now...


Awful, awful drunk girl.
You're so stupid!

Haiku (drunk, of all things)

Awful awful girl
One day you will make Chris sad
Horrible person

Cry now.

Decided to go goth today...good times.

Two current projects are the comic (of course) and the DN website. The problem with the comic is that I can't seem to make up my mind whether I want it to be cartoony or more dark. I keep flipping back and forth between the two, and I'm honestly not sure which one works better. Ah, well. I'll think about it some more.

Feeling fairly...blank today, not sure why. Maybe I need some coffee. Didn't sleep well last night (Chris was out like a light, which is unusual for him)...I just kind of tossed and turned and wanted to get up and draw or something.

Girl party tonight, so I'm going to talk to Lisa about drinks for the Anime party. Or alternately: Hey Stephanie, you think Jamie would buy for us?

Sounds like it's going to be pretty small so far, but that's cool, since our place isn't that big. So far, besides me/Chris, it's Roman, Nick, and Teith. Nayno said he wasn't interested, and I haven't asked Surreal yet...who else? Might ask Cliff...I'm just not sure who else would just want to come watch Anime and drink. If anyone else is interested, or if you guys want to bring friends, just let me know so I can get a rough estimate on the number of people, ok? Anyone's welcome at this point, since 3 people is rather a small turnout. Whee!

Haiku of the day:

Haven't done a thing,
Just wasted my time online.
Stupid, stupid girl.

Gotta get stuff DONE.
Monday, July 07, 2003

For the record:

Stephanie, I still consider you a friend, just chill out with the whole "attention" thing. I think that you need to be able to entertain yourself sometimes without needing people around you constantly...maybe I'm more of a loner than you are, but you just can't expect people to be around you all the time. You're still a nice person, I just think you tend to get caught up in focusing on what entertains isn't always entertaining. As much as popular culture and the media would like you to believe it, you can't expect to be entertained every second of your life. Everyone gets bored.

Other news: I promised Stab-Man I'd post the Secret Diaries link again. So if you didn't catch it the first time 'round, enjoy! Also recently stumbled across this site which is alright...This one is by far my favorite. He's currently on my desktop.

Haiku of the day:

Naked Asian girl
Pretty, posing on my screen
It's art, damnit! Art!

Sunday, July 06, 2003

Well, I would have posted at some point yesterday, except my modem decided it didn't exist. I think Navi was just being tired and cranky, because now it magically works again. Go figure.

Anyway, today we're off to Albany with Chris's parents who have spontaneously decided we need a new mattress. Hey, fine with mattress! Plus, this one does kind of hurt my back sometimes.

In other news: Teith...drunken anime party invitation extends to everyone who can come...with some of you guys in high school I don't know how easy that'll be to pull off (I don't particularly want your parents picking you up when you're wasted, as that could get me in a whooooooole mess o' trouble. Don't really want anyone biking home drunk either). You guys are welcome to crash on our floor (tell your folks it's a sleepover), but you might need to bring sleeping bags (we only have one), and you're probably going to want some kind of padding, since it's hardwood, and kind of a bitch to sleep on.
I'm thinking the party'll happen next weekend, but since it's summer, we could have it during the week if no one has plans. For now, plan on Friday-ish. If that's a problem, let me know. Also, if anyone wants to chip in for drinks, snacks, etc. that'd be really cool too.

Oh! And it's totally cool if you want to come and watch anime and not drink, too! Just don't taunt us drunkards too much when we make asses of ourselves, eh?

*hopes she has enough room for everyone* ^_^;;

Alright, off to clean

Good times yesterday...hung out with a lot of people o_O (Social? US? Crazy!)

Let's see...Roman and his sister dropped by, then Cliff and Nick, but Cliff had to leave...watched "Equilibrium" which was pretty good...the point-blank shootout scene was AWSOME. Then we walked over to Safeway and got some food, and then hung out at the park lighting off smoke bombs and crackling balls. Good times, good times. Tried to get ahold of Cliff and Lisa, but just ended up heading down and watching the fireworks at City Hall....then we went over to Cliff and Lisa's and watched part of the South Park movie..I had a few beers and got really hungry, so we ended up going home for food though. All in all, a very cool day.

In other much, really. Plans for a drunken anime party are in development...who's in? Might play some LAN games as well. UT runs on most of the computers, and I think Warcraft 3 runs on 3 of them. Hmm...

Computers we own:

Navi (Mine)
Asmodeus (Chris's)
Mrs. Tigglewinky (the laptop)
Buddha (currently dead)
Cleopatra, aka "The Abomination"
Betty Lou

Navi and Asmodeus can run everything ok... Mrs. Tigglewinky, Cleopatra, and Betty Lou can conceivably run Unreal. I think Navi, Asmodeus and Cleopatra are the only ones who can run Warcraft 3. Sooo....yeah. That's the breakdown. This is assuming our circuit breaker can handle the strain, and that we have enough network cables.

LAN party! LAN party!

Haiku of the day:

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137'5 937 |)|2|_|/\/|< 4/\/|) p14'/
14/\/ P4|27'/ 4/\/|) 4/\/i/\/\3
90|) 1'/\/\ 5|_|(|-| 4 933|<

It's so true.
Saturday, July 05, 2003

Haiku of the day #2:

Too Damn Tired

I said I would clean
But I fell asleep at six
Should have had coffee.

Fun with haikus!

Friday, July 04, 2003

4:00 AM, and I have sworn not to sleep until I conquer the mess that is our house...I want to have people over, damnit (read: drunken anime party), which I can't do until you can walk on the floor without stepping on something. Watch me get like halfway done cleaning and then fall asleep in our giant pile of dirty laundry. Eww.

In other news:

Like the wastrel I am, I have dropped Aikido. While it made sense at the time, right now I'm beginning to feel the waves of guilt and stupidity breaking on the coral reefs of my mind. First of all, it was my only class all summer term and if I can't stick with it....well, that's just pathetic. Second of all, have made no progress on getting a job. This is much, much worse than you think. The graphic design company we're starting is...going slowly. I really need to start throwing myself into that. Not that I think it'll amount to anything besides side cash, but at this point any option is starting to sound good. (Please god, not food service though... I just wouldn't be able to take it).

Aomatsu was so tasty and good...considering my financial situation I really shouldn't be going out to eat that often, but every once in awhile you need some sushi to lift your spirits, yes? Yes. Stabman: Would like to meet your friend there, would like to work there, if they're hiring any time soon....think your friend would know anything? (Can you say: "dream job"?)

Other news...was surprised by "William's" sister coming down from Portland (for the record: "William" is our paranoid friend who doesn't like his name online. So he goes by William, and I tease him by sticking it in quotes all the time). Anyway, "William" was surprised too, as he has access to neither phone nor internet (unless he goes to OSU) and got her e-mail today, which was, of course, the day she was coming. Much scrambling and trying to figure out how she was getting here (train or bus?)....the boys ended up going to the bus station and waiting, and it turned out she took the train...the train doesn't stop in Corvallis, it stops in Albany. Once this was figured out, much scrambling to get to Albany, to meet "William's" sister who had by this time been in Albany for awhile.

First impressions of "William's" sister: Athletic and exciteable. Kind of reminds me of a girl I knew from Bend, but I'm not really sure why. Seems nice, but I'm quite sure our interests would clash, since I'm a sworn geek, and she' know, athletic. With the moving, and the running, and the...the... outside. Don't see much family resemblance between her and "William"....yet.

Haiku of the day:

Internet Addict

Online for two min.
Oh! Where does that link go to?
What? It's been four hours?!

Well, I guess it's time to start cleaning.

So full of sushi.....

*falls over*

Well, we're back.
Tastiest place ever.
Will definitely be going there more.
I've posted WAYYY to often today.
Thursday, July 03, 2003

Bah. Turns out they don't open 'till 5:00. Silly Japanese places with their silly hours...


Well, we're off to try this "Aomatsu" place...assuming its open. Hmm. Maybe we should call before we walk over there.

*hungry* (It's 4:00 and I haven't eaten yet...Sushi for breakfast!)

Yeah...I tend to forget trivial things, like eating.

More koans for Surreal: (from the Jargon Dictionary)

A novice was trying to fix a broken Lisp machine by turning the power off and on.
Knight, seeing what the student was doing, spoke sternly: "You cannot fix a machine by just power-cycling it with no understanding of what is going wrong."
Knight turned the machine off and on.
The machine worked.

In the days when Sussman was a novice, Minsky once came to him as he sat hacking at the PDP-6.
"What are you doing?", asked Minsky.
"I am training a randomly wired neural net to play Tic-Tac-Toe" Sussman replied.
"Why is the net wired randomly?", asked Minsky.
"I do not want it to have any preconceptions of how to play", Sussman said.
Minsky then shut his eyes.
"Why do you close your eyes?", Sussman asked his teacher.
"So that the room will be empty."
At that moment, Sussman was enlightened.

And, my personal favorite:

A disciple of another sect once came to Drescher as he was eating his morning meal.
"I would like to give you this personality test", said the outsider, "because I want you to be happy."
Drescher took the paper that was offered him and put it into the toaster, saying: "I wish the toaster to be happy, too."

Happy toaster!

Spiffy. Looks like it decided to make the cam work after all.

On a completely random note: Cheese porn.

I'm not even kidding

I fear for my soul.

Well, tripod is being stupid and refusing to update my cam WAS a picture of my rat, but nooooo. Stupid Tripod.

It does this sometimes.
Wednesday, July 02, 2003

Met up with Nayno et all at the library today, hung out making characters. Had a damn good time, too. Not only did I get to meet a bunch of cool guys, I also have a badass cat girl to play in our upcoming game...I'll definitely draw her, and anyone else's character, if I get a description. *Thumbs up* Not promising anything spectacular, mind you.

Chris and I drove to Albany to make a deposit at stupid Key bank, which is widespread in Boise, but not Oregon, apparently. Closest one is in Albany. Anyway, had an interesting time (my sense of direction = Ryoga). We were also going to go out for Chinese (damn that tasty sushi, Teith!) but the place we passed looked shitty, so we ended up driving back and going to Jack in the Box instead (since it was fairly late). The disturbing thing about the whole trip was the noises my car started making once we were in Albany...this horrendous scraping noise every time I hit the brakes. So now, among other problems, we think the brake pads are wearing out. Damn, I need a job. If only to pay for rent, food, and car repairs. I really don't need much else.

Well, maybe DSL.

Nayno: Ok...I'll probably be mildly hungover, but I'll head over to the library around 2. Will probably be wearing shades, as light = headache.

Went to a party last night, talked to Cliff a bit...which, quite honestly pissed me off because he seems to think that:

A. Yes, he did kiss me (he didn't, he was very, very drunk). And
B. Anything I tell him is fair game for him to pass on because I must "really want people to know it" or I wouldn't tell him things.

Bullshit. Sometimes you just need someone to rant drunkenly to, and you need them to hold their fucking tongue the next day. Apparently Cliff hasn't grasped the fact that I don't have many people in Corvallis that I'm willing to open up to. He earned my trust breifly, but now he's going to have to work to get it back again. Bitch.

Anyway, later in said party, Cliff had to go to sleep (has an appointment or something early tomorrow...can't really remember, as I was avoiding/ignoring him at that point) so a bunch of us went to Shari's where I ranted loudly about how sorry I was our server had to put up with us, how I couldn't draw, and probably lots of other things, too.

Then we walked back to Lisa's (and Cliff's, now), dropped most of the guys off, and "William" and I walked home, stopping close to the park so I could rant some more at him. Sorry, "William" shouldn't have to put up with my crap.

Then we walked over to my house (on the other side of the park), passing a bum sleeping on one of the benches...since it was cold out, and at this point I really felt I needed to redeem myself as a good person, we walked over to my car and got a blanket for him, which he appreciated. So that was my good deed of the day, among multiple failures.
Also, in an effort to be a better girlfriend, made Chris breakfast this morning, because I really don't want to fuck up this relationship, despite all the times I've so blatantly sabotaged it.

Man, no one should have to put up with me.

So very drunk.
Always make an ass of myself. Grrrr.
So stupid.

At least I can still spell.

I'm the most horrible girlfriend in the world!
Chris: Don't argue, it's true.

Still not particularly cheered up, but I'm working on it. Trying to get paperwork done...ick. Paperwork.

This is fun and amusing, and yes, I stole the link from PA. It's not that I particularly like Linux, or even use it (or know HOW to use it, for that matter), it's that I resent the fact that Microsoft owns my soul because I'm so used to windows that I'll never try anything else.

More later. Aikido tonight.
Tuesday, July 01, 2003


I was supposed to do a whole bunch of stuff today and I just spaced all of it. I feel like crap. This is not just spacing stuff. This is spacing stuff when I'm already feeling like crap because I haven't written anything in over a year, and can't draw or design as well as real graphic design students. I don't know what I'm doing, and it seems like lately I've been the epitome (is that how you spell it?) of lethargy. I need to get stuff done. I need a job. I have to pay rent. I need a swift kick in the ass.
Also haven't heard back from the hospital yet. Nyargh.

Oh, and...nayno? Surreal? Someone? Need help making a character? *lost, confused nooB...*

Oh, and yes, I'm feeling all confused again.
(I have to decide? What?? Were you really referring to how you were feeling?)

Goddamnit, I always fuck things up. Continuously!

"...jiyuu wo takaku kawasareta ki mo suru ga
kokoro made yasuku utta oboe wa nai..."



Cam pops up.

Feeling: Cranky.
Eating: Scone thing.
Reading: "God-Emperor of Dune" by Frank Herbert
Listening to: My Digital Illustration teacher (Mr. Thompson)
Playing: Nothing
Arch-nemesis: Mornings
Currently Preferring: Computers over PEOPLE.
craving: Salad & Coffee

Fight Club
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